again, I am tempted to start the whole post with "wow."
so here goes.
Wow.
some sort of shift has definitely passed thru me in the past couple of days. It's like a warm front has passed thru paul the weather system.
Clarity. non-obfuscation (thx, btw, GL for bringing the word "obfuscate" into my vocabulary once upon a time).
Interesting.
I remember while doing "the path of the mystic" study course, or maybe one of the other courses I took from the manifest mystery school (freshly reopened as kurtsf), there was a guy who's whole goal in the course was to become enlightened.
I thought to myself that enlightenment doesn't come thru a year's study program, or in this case 4 Monday nights. But it comes thru life experiences.
Now I've been thru some of those experiences and while I don't claim to be enlightened, I do claim to be solidly on the pathway and headed in the right direction.
Why can I make that claim now when I couldn't not too long ago? Because it's true. Because I chose to sit thru an uncomfortable film where I could learn more about myself. Because the credits on that dark spot have finally rolled.
Myself, having learned more, feels really good about it now.
gone is the lonely spot. gone is the longing. gone is the fear. gone is the crazy addiction. gone. gone. gone.
and it feels good to know that part of myself. and it feels good to know that I don't have to live there any more.
yay team! wait, there's no I in team… Yay me! oh, no I in that either. um, Yay I!
The pathway. The direction. The heading and bearing.
The Journey continues. Finally.
what a relief to be back in my own skin.
The cynic in me wonders how long It'll last. The rediscovered me says It lasts for all eternity, because It always was and always will be. With the non-obfuscation filters in place, it's clear that everything has been part of what always is.
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Fine, rub it in. You're going to have to hire me as one of your classroom instructors. this law thing just isn't working out.